“You are not good enough.” “You are not worth it.” “No one will ever fight for you.” “You are alone.”
Those were some of the things I heard inside my mind a few weeks ago.
They seemed so real. They seemed so true. I felt so hopeless and was filled with many fears. Why did I hear those things? Discouragement comes in different ways, and for me, it came through trials and voices in my mind telling me I was not good enough.
We live in a world with so many expectations and pressure. It is hard to not be discouraged sometimes.
Elder Richard G. Scott, in a talk called “Finding Happiness” at a BYU devotional, said he heard those voices before, trying to take all the hope he had to be with his wife again.
“As more encounters came, I realized that I was surrounded with evil individuals who were completely unhappy, with no purpose save that of frustrating the happiness of others so that they too would become miserable,” Elder Scott said in the talk, describing a dream he had.
He said the wicked people would manipulate the people they were trying to control. If an apostle was not immune to those voices, we are not either. Elder Scott was able to recognize that those voices were not from the Holy Ghost.
The Lord would not try to discourage us, especially not after trials and temptations. He wants his children to be happy.
Happiness is a choice. We can choose if we are going to let darkness have control of our minds.
Life is not easy, and it does not get easier through time; it gets harder. We need to rely on someone who will have strength to help us move forward.
We need to remember that there is someone in charge of this planet. Someone created us and created a plan so we would not have to wonder what to do. God did all this for us, and for him it wasn’t enough. He made sure his son would come and atone for every single person who lived, who lives and who will live in this world.
Shouldn’t this make us happy? Shouldn’t this give us hope every day, not just in the good days, but in the bad ones, too? “Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light,” said Albus Dumbledore in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
We can choose how our trials influence our lives. We can choose if we are going to sit and suffer quietly, or if we are going to do something to change our situation. We received agency when we came to Earth. We have the power to choose. We won’t be able to choose which trials we are going to go through during our lives, but we can choose our reaction.
We just need to turn the lights on and look.
Whenever the trials are too hard to handle, ask for help.
Let us use the Holy Ghost. Let us use the Atonement. Let us use the plan of salvation. Let us fast. Let us pray.
Let us study the scriptures.
We will be happy if we do that.
“Your happiness is absolutely guaranteed as you willingly obey his commandments, receive all of the necessary ordinances and are obedient to them, for he is a perfect, loving Father who will never change,” Elder Scott said.